Unspokenly Written!

 At times in the middle of an ordinary life something just happens which either makes you feel good,sad or hurt. Yeah that happens to me a lot. Each Good, Sad or Hurt thing evokes a feeling inside me. I dunno so many thoughts flash by my mind. My imagination goes beyond reality that when I actually get back to reality it kinda gives a slight pain within.

 I've never been able to express my self when I talk that's cause I stammer while talking but then at that times when the words get stuck I so feel pity on myself that I couldn't prove my point, so many opportunities come to me where I could actually speak & make a difference but then this stammering thingy does not let me do it.

 I've always been that person to whom people come for advice but it feels so bad when I can't tell them what I feel for that situation or my opinion through my voice, I end up sending them a message on Facebook explaining the situation, like it's been a habit for me writing everything that at certain time I feel like I have no voice to talk. All these things are so etched in me that whenever I think about it, it feels so wrong.

 I've been jotting down my journey of living this way into pages, all those words which has my feelings hoping that one fine day if I ever recover from this I'm gonna read it to my Dad. He's been that one person who always supported me in everything I did, maybe I got attached with Pens & papers cause of him I'd always see him writing & I did the same.

At times I wrote about my self, my feelings, desires & dreams at times I wrote a fiction combining some real life stories. I hear people talking about success & money everywhere, even in future I don't get any success or money I'd at least have my book,knowing that I've made it. That whoever gets their eyes through my words would know about me & my inner Voice.                                                                   

Without You!

Without you the brightest thing in my life tends to fade away its beauty.
Without you the most pretty aspect of life fly's away with the wind...leaving an ugly truth behind

Without you my lust of fame seems nothing..where people come and praise me..they go away with a smile but i live behind with a fake one.

Time has passed by and has healed some wounds but there are the scar...s left behind which time and no medicine would be able to remove it.

You come to my dreams.You love me in my dreams..you kiss me in my dreams
those feel so real to me that at times i desire to sleep for all my life and dream of you..
but this life..has now woken me up .when every morning I have to wake up knowing that I've lost you and every night I go back into my dreams knowing that I'll never have you again.

Without you the most tasty food seems to be tasteless that in which no salt has been added yet I'm eating it..
Without you the most beautiful dreams seems to be a nightmare where I feel scared and crawl in the blankets like a kid..who does the same when he is scared.

Without you the roses look so dead & it's Fragrance  smell  so foul. It's like you went away & you're favorite flower went along. 

 

Without you the moat expensive ring seems to be a second hand stuff which I'd brought .
Without you the most gorgeous girls seem to me like hags..making fake talks and distracting me away.
Without you the moon looks so dull..like as if the shine in it has put onto off mode..where everything else looks black..

I often get back to our days of togetherness with you where you made me feel so loved ,when your love was all I had wanted but now without you..I just feel like a helpless person whose screaming for his past to come back..who desperately wants the love of his life back..but now no one seems to hear him.where no girl will love him the way she loved him.

NOT EVERYONE IN THIS WORLD HAS THE FATE TO CHERISH THE FULLEST FORM OF LOVE..SOME ARE JUST BORN TO EXPERIENCE THE ABBREVIATION OF IT

 I wrote this after reading Ravinder Singh's ' I too had a love story' was in 7th grade when I wrote it so it's not that good I guess. Photo courtesy- Rahul Bhanushali :)

Damn Facebook!

Because this is the Damn Facebook where people are more connected then in real life. Nay! you don't have to waste your balanceto call or text the other person just open their damn facebook profile & let them know. Did some interesting? Whoa post it on facebook. Something sad happened? don't have anyone to talk to or to share with? Open the damn facebook & post it, several people will stop by reading it, liking it, commenting on it.

Clicked a good picture today? want people to praise about it open the damn Facebook & post it people will drool on it. Feeling bored? nothing interesting to do? Lazy ass? walk to the computer or grab the mobile phone, Open the damn facebook & pass your time.

 Oh you got a crush at school, shy to talk to him/her? No prob honey, open this damn Facebook & stalk on that person or add him/her. Aha you're lonely & heart broken? want a lover? someone who cares? aww sweetie Open this damn Facebook & search for someone I'm sure you're gonna get one.

erm you're high on Alcohol & Fag, you wanna do something entertaining but dunno what? Don't worry open this Damn Facebook & let people know that liquor is running through you're veins that you're smoking like  crazy.

 So you think you should meet some new people while you're out in a mall, well open this damn Facebook & call whoever is nearby for some fun. So you're mad about this damn Facebook ruining life? Chill babe it's not to flame our sweetheart Facebook it's ourselves for gettin' so addicted to it that we are so on it sharing every thing on this DAMN FACEBOOK.

Harry Style's 1D Imagine

You are best friends with Harry since the 3rd grade & did everything together but while he went to the X-Factor you both started having problem's & could not spend time together as Harry got very busy with The X-Factor & the band-mates but you never gave up faith in him. You felt a soft spot for him since day one but you never showed him neither did you let him know cause within you feared that if he comes to know the best friends relationship between you too would end & never be as same as before. While The X-Factor Finale was in few days you prayed to god for their victory & voted for them however you had developed a good friendship with rest of the boys so they always kept you updated with Harry's activity's. The finale came but unfortunately 1D didn't win though you felt bad but within you were proud that you're best friend had made it so big. While Harry's life as One Direction had started you two started drifting even more but Harry once a week always made sure to call you. You two would always spend time together when ever he visited Holmes Chapel  and it would remind you of the old times together. Weeks passed by but this time he didn't even send you a text while you got curious about it, you called Niall to ask about Harry but to your response Niall said that he was busy with some girl & they were out for dinner. Hearing that you broke into pieces & started crying nostalgia flashed through you're mind then suddenly you see you're mobile vibrating it displayed 'Harry Calling' you wanted to pick up but you didn't, with all you're strength you rejected the call, broke your sim card & thought that now he is no more the Harry he used to be & that he will be with  a celeb as a girlfriend later that night you spend hours looking at pictures which you had taken with him. Listening to the songs you both sang while doing that you come across an old letter which he had sent you in grade 10th which said 'Dear Y/N No matter what happens in my life, no matter how far I go, No matter how many times we fight in the end you're the one who was always there for me & I promise I'll always keep you happy & I am gonna marry you one fine day, with love Harry' reading that you felt happy & sad at the same time you came out to the balcony looked at the night sky & uttered some words when suddenly you say someone throwing a rock at you, in that dim light your vision wasn't that good, the figure came closer, closer & closer you closed you're eyes while that voice said 'Happy Birthday Nikita' that voice seemed familiar to you when you opened your eyes it was Harry, you'd almost forgotten that it was you're birthday but he hadn't you couldn't take out a word. He said ' I am sorry I couldn't give you much time but I've always loved you & will always love you until I stop breathing' hearing that you take your hands to his lips and say ' Don't talk about last breath' he slowly places his hand in yours and kisses it ' I love you Y/N, will you be my girlfriend?' you couldn't believe it was happening he said it again ' Y/N I love you, will you be my Girlfriend?' you instantly replied ' I love you too & Yes' you both kiss passionately feeling wonderful & live happily ever after. :) xx

Zayn Malik1D Imagine

while you were in the verandah sitting on the cold floor reading Zayn's letter to you where he'd written 'where in a world of fluctuating feelings & emotions writers can quote some eminent lines but for me it's difficult to quote the tenner of our relationship which we have shared till now' a tear drop rolled outta your eyes wiping them quickly you got up from the floor & went inside to your room looking around the room you notice a mirror lying down in your study table the mirror was in heart shape you suddenly remembered zayn telling you 'I'm giving this mirror to the most beautiful girl in my life & I want her to look at this mirror when ever she feels sad about herself so that she remembers that there's a guy who thinks she is beautiful' you smile reading that & touch your hair while you turn over the mirror you see 'You don't you're beautiful & that's what makes you beautiful' engraved in the back side of the mirror you start blushing but then again the reality strikes you with the fact that now he's gone to some one else & that you don't mean anything to him. It had been ages you two didn't talk over the phone,walking towards the window thinking about that you unlocked your Iphone & started writing a note ' She can't sleep tonight, standing by the window sill, waiting for a call that doesn't come. Tears in her eye's rolling onto...' *phone rings* *you're insecure, dunno what for...* you see it's an unkown number so you don't pick up the call. It rings again this time you switch off the mobile & go back into your room to sleep. The next day when you switch on your Iphone you see a msg from that same unknown number, you read 'Hey Y/N, long time. How have you been sweetheart, sorry I've been busy with band but I just want you to know that I miss you, I'll be coming back next week, can we hangout then? :) take care xoxo - Zayn' for a minute you couldn't believe it but the moment you did you sobbed cause nostalgia flashed into your mind, you kept gazing the msg & reading it over & over again at times you felt good but you didn't reply him thinking that you would break down with emotions. The next week finally arrived but you didn't get any text or call from Zayn but Liam called you up, you were pretty good friends with him he said that Zayn talked a lot about you & that he liked you, you thought he was just fooling around & ignored that while within you prayed if that was really the truth. It was exactly one week that zayn last called you kept thinking about him. There was a knock on your room's door it was your mum, she said that Zayn had called & told her to let you know that he wanted you to visit him now, he was at home. You thanked your mum for letting you know, you got dressed in a baby pink Dress which Zayn had gifted on your Birthday, you pared that up with grey heel's , you cured your hair & applied light make up. You drove till his home. Coming outta the car you could see that there was no electricity & everything was fully dark, you yelled 'Zayn' no one replied you again yelled 'zayn' still no response. The door was locked. you felt stupid & thought that zayn forgot that he had invited you but then you saw a ray of light coming from the back of the house you went there & saw a beautiful candle light dinner set up, while a hand wrapped you from back you felt a jerk, you turned around it was Zayn, you didn't know what to say, ' Y/N you look so beautiful' he said ' oh Thanks' you reply with a smile an awkward silence prevails 'erm so like it's been ages we've met & done some crazy things together' he said ' ah yeah I miss those old time' you say ' Y/N?' he said ' Yes.' you reply ' I wanted to say this for a long time but I never got a chance to, you've always been the one who was the closest to me & without you I felt incomplete, I'd got a habit of you & now when I'd been away from you for a long time I still could not get over you, I tried but I couldn't that night when I called you I was crying cause I missed you so much & now that I've fought with the management & come to see you I feel so happy & good, Y/N I don't know but it just happened' 'what?' you said curiously ' Love, I'm in love with you & all your little things, I was stupid I didn't realize this before so now I'm telling you I don't want it to be late I LOVE YOU Y/N, will you be my girlfriend forever & beyond?' he exclaimed you didn't know what to do you were totally surprised happiness filled you ' YES YES YES Zayn' you said ' Oh Y/N, babe I love you so much' ' I love you more babe' you said, he came closer grabbed you waist with his hands brought this lips closed to yours & when his lips touched yours you felt that it was the right time. you both kissed for a long time & he said 'Happy Valentines Day Y/N' yes it was Valentines day & you didn't know you replied him the same & thought that this was the best valentines gift you'd ever got. You both have an amazing night eating the food with the candle night followed by a lovely sleepover with zayn, feeling so loved you knew that it was meant to be. :) xx

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