At times in the middle of an ordinary life
something just happens which either makes you feel good,sad or hurt.
Yeah that happens to me a lot. Each Good, Sad or Hurt thing evokes a
feeling inside me. I dunno so many thoughts flash by my mind. My
imagination goes beyond reality that when I actually get back to reality
it kinda gives a slight pain within.
I've never been able to express my self when
I talk that's cause I stammer while talking but then at that times when
the words get stuck I so feel pity on myself that I couldn't prove my
point, so many opportunities come to me where I could actually speak
& make a difference but then this stammering thingy does not let me
do it.
I've always
been that person to whom people come for advice but it feels so bad when
I can't tell them what I feel for that situation or my opinion through
my voice, I end up sending them a message on Facebook explaining the
situation, like it's been a habit for me writing everything that at
certain time I feel like I have no voice to talk. All these things are
so etched in me that whenever I think about it, it feels so wrong.
I've been
jotting down my journey of living this way into pages, all those words
which has my feelings hoping that one fine day if I ever recover from
this I'm gonna read it to my Dad. He's been that one person who always
supported me in everything I did, maybe I got attached with Pens &
papers cause of him I'd always see him writing & I did the same.
At times I
wrote about my self, my feelings, desires & dreams at times I wrote a
fiction combining some real life stories. I hear people talking about
success & money everywhere, even in future I don't get any success
or money I'd at least have my book,knowing that I've made it. That
whoever gets their eyes through my words would know about me & my
inner Voice.